SELF ESTEEM

Yeah this love is wonderful 
Our relationship is very special 
We had our good times 
And of course the dark ones too . . . 


There's no denying tha good times were awesome
Just a thought of it would bring a smile 
Its memories will forever be cherished 
Can't say 'nuff 'bout it . . . 


But i think i have a problem 
Some thoughts have been bugging my mind 
For quite some time already 
It's been creeping slowly all over me . . . 


It's starting 2 affect my consciousness 
And i really can't take it anymore 
I don't know how long is my patience 4 this 
But you see it has 2 end . . . 


I understand every relationship has its own flaws 
Its own unique differences, like we do 
Although it's just normal 2 have some feuds 
Its effect is 2 much 4 me 2 bear . . . 


With every pain i felt, every humiliation i received 
With every rejection i took, every tear i shed 
It brought me more and more bitterness 
And that very same thing may cause me 2 think otherwise . . . 


Becuz when it's almost always happening 
Don't u think raising my white flag is a far fetched idea? 
Although I'm so fascinated with this love 
In times of crisis, every bad word u utter and every action u take 
Serves as a nail in the coffin i mean, it can take its toll on you . . . 


The way you treat me is unacceptable 
Even though I've done wrong 
I still don't deserve to be treated as stupid as you want to 
Please remember that every thing has its limitations
And not at all times you're gonna be tolerated . . . 


I love you very much - no doubt 'bout it 
But it does not necessarily mean that you have all the rights 
To be an ego-eater and a heart-trampler 
Let's give each other our well-deserved respects, can we? 
And finally I just hope you wont be some girl 
Who'll bid goodbye after rippin' my guts out! 


copyright Feb 2000